Yes, I should be in bed. But instead I'm perusing Momversation.com and finding inspiration.

See, what I love about this episode of Momversation is that a majority of these women are contemplating their second child...it is so refreshing to hear from people who, like me, are questioning when...or if...more than one child is right for them. I feel like there is a lot of pressure in this society to pop out Child #2 precisely 2.5 years past the arrival of Child #1...in spite of the fact that motherhood may or may not have kicked you in the ass during Round 1, and what if Zoey IS our sleeper??

Because for real? It is 10:21 p.m. and Zoey has already woken up THREE. TIMES. Crying. Loudly. "I want my Mommy! I need my Mommy!"

Um...start this all over again with a newborn? Sometimes I just don't know. I want Zoey to have a sibling. Really. Yesterday I was all 'yeah, it's time for another one!' And today I'm back to 'Oh my God, would I really have the patience to deal with a preschooler AND a newborn?' The thought of having to breastfeed another human being makes me nauseated. They would never sleep at the same time, possibly ever. And that wayward Barbie shoe I'm eyeballing from across the room right now? Can totally picture myself having to extract it from Zoey's little sister's trachea some day. (Don't worry. Yesterday it was all visions of small onesies and a sleepy, tiny baby curled against my chest. Back and forth, people. I'm all over the map.)

What struck me most in this video was the realization that I have never looked around our dinner table and felt like someone was missing. Maybe because my Grandma was talking too loud or I was too busy trying to convince Zoey that the smashed peas in her pasta have the exact same taste and quality as the peas she loves and adores in her soup. Whatever the reason, I suppose I realize that, for now, my life is full and I am content with the family we have. Zoey will have a sibling, someday. She could very well be a teenager when it happens, but that's okay, right? Right??